I'm really enjoying my time off. Money isn't a huge object, but it's a little bit of one. I will say if it was NO object, I'm not really sure if I would feel like going back to work at all (right now) :)
This would worry me slightly...but it's the first time, even since I got out of the AF, that I just have a break. No obligations. It does feel good, what can I say. I'm very lucky to get a breather.
But I think that is all it is. A short period for some R&R. Like post-deployment.
I feel like I'm entering a state of complete peace and zen. Enjoying my family and our life, and re energizing and focusing for the next phase of my professional life.
I really enjoy cooking for my family. I really enjoy spending time with the dogs (I guess mostly just so I can tire Ellie out so she doesn't drive us insane). I do like a clean house. I wonder how we ever had time to do all this stuff when I worked full time. We figured it out, but I do know I also felt completely miserable in a job I disliked. I had a lot less time for my family and friends. All for a job that made me miserable and I disliked.
I am a little scared to dive into another super time-consuming career. But, I feel like it's a little more natural this time because I am starting to feel like it is a calling. I understand the sacrifices I will be making (or as well as I can understand it without living it) but I feel like I will be heading into it with acceptance. That it will be difficult, but I will have a deep motivation for doing it and it will bring me enough joy that everything will work out. Yeah, I hope.
Oh, waaaaaaiiiiit. I am only starting my second shadowing session next week. So all big plans still up in the air :) Which is why......I'm just enjoying the present for now. I'm an AF wife AND a student on summer break :D
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